Showing posts with label 1 Samuel 1. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 1 Samuel 1. Show all posts

Friday, 12 November 2021

Prayers of longing and praising

1 Samuel 1: 1-23

1 Samuel 1:24 – 2: 11

Proclamation of the Word

Our readings this morning have 2 different prayers.

One, almost silent, lips moving, but not heard by human ears.
A prayer of longing, a sigh, a yearning, a hope
A plea to God.

The other joyful and heard by those around her
A prayer of praise, confident, and prophetic
A melody of the world to come.

 

When we gather for worship, we pray, we pray for God to be with us, to forgive our sins. We pray for health and healing; we pray for peace in our world and in our hearts; we pray for family and friends, leaders of nations and leaders of churches; we pray for creation. And when we share around the Lord’s table, we have the great prayer of thanksgiving.

I sometimes wonder if we have too many words in our prayers and not enough yearning, longing, sighing, and honesty with God.

Prayer is one way we grow in our relationship with God, the more we are honest, when we admit our faults and fears and celebrate our joys and courage, the closer our bond.

In Hannah’s prayer we hear about her pain and anguish. We too can come to God with our fears, our hurts, our confusion.  

A quote from Mahatma Gandhi,
“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”
[UCC SAMUEL]

It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”

We live in a society where we are told to put on a brave face, even when we are in pain or grief.  We can become so used to hiding what is happening in our lives and our hearts from those around us, that we also try and hide from God.  

We are people who know God, and that means instead of holding everything inside ourselves, we can pour it all out to God.

God knows about pain and fear and grief,
God, the giver of life, knows the diversity of emotions, the variety of experiences, the terror in the joy of being alive.

God wants to hear our sighs, our fears, God is not scared of our tears or our anger, God wants to hear it all, with or without words.

Hannah does bear a son, Samuel, and another of Hannah's prayers is recorded. This is a very different prayer to the first one. This is a prayer of joy, a prayer about God, to God. Theology is talking about God, prayer is speaking to God, prayer uses first person language. But this prayer is not only a prayer of joy at having a son, it is a prayer about a world turned upside down.

Hannah's prayer is very much like the song of Mary that we will read in a few weeks, they both talk of a world turned upside down. A world where the poor will have food and the rich will be hungry.

It is the end of the world as we know it.

And that means the beginning of a new world.

A new world based on love and grace, and when we know the God of love and grace, we can be honest about the fears in our minds and the hurt in our hearts, the pains in our bodies.

God didn't create us to live in fear, but God understands our fears. God created us for love and for life, for freedom. We are created, known, and named as God's daughters and sons.

We are called to live as the people of God, people known by God, people loved by God, people blessed by God.

Like Hannah we can mouth our silent please to God and sing in joy of God’s wonderful action in our lives. 

Saturday, 14 November 2015

Difficult Places and New Possibilities

Proclamation of the Word #1

WARNING: Some of what I talk about this morning may be upsetting for some people. Please don’t leave early, there are 2 parts to the sermon, each with a hymn.  Also please don’t leave if you are sad without speaking to me or one of the elders.

The big picture:

In the book of Genesis we read about creation, and amongst other stories, we hear about four people – Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and Joseph. Biblical history then tells us about the move to Egypt, slavery, Moses, exodus, the covenant. After the death of Moses, Joshua leads the people into the promised land, and the nation of Israel is established.
A few more generations, and God raised up leaders – judges – people who called the people of Israel to return to God.

At the end of the book of Judges:
 “There was no king in Israel at that time. Everyone did whatever they pleased.” Judges 21:25 (GNT)

Then comes the book of Ruth. At the end of the story, Ruth has a son Obed, the father of Jesse, the father of David – David who becomes the king of Israel.
And this week we heard the passage from 1 Samuel, the birth of Samuel to Hannah. Samuel who becomes a priest and is the one who anoints David the shepherd boy, knowing he will become King of Israel.

While the Bible has a big story, of the presence of God with people throughout history, of how people related to God and each other; there are also stories that make up that bigger story. Today we look at the story of Hannah.
Hannah is married to Elkanah, but she doesn’t have any children. This was a cause of sadness for Hannah, even though Elkanah loved her. But as well as sadness, there were practical issues to contend with. Without a son, Hannah could be destitute when Elkanah died. Then there was the idea that women without children had done something wrong, it was Gods punishment for sinfulness. [Jo Anne Taylor, http://pastorsings.com/?s=hannah%27s+song]
And Elkanah’s other wife Peninnah taunts Hannah, because she has children and Hannah does not.
For Hannah, not having a child was a practical, spiritual and emotional problem.
I can tell you that things have not changed much.

Ian and I had been married for a few years, and we were at that stage of thinking about starting a family – all very normal stuff. But I didn’t get pregnant, a few months and a friend tells me she is pregnant, six months later and her daughter is born, and I’m still not pregnant. A few months later we moved to another part of the state with Ian’s work, and found a new GP, who started with tests.  Even though there are plenty of options for women today in terms of being in the workforce, there is still a standard expectation that if you are married, or in long term relationship you will have children. One of the hardest things I remember doing is telling our parents that we looked like we might not have children. Ian and I each have one brother, and at that time neither was married. My brother is now married but they have decided not to have children, given they were forty when they married.  So for both sets of parents, there are no grandchildren.

We had treatment, I got pregnant, ended up in hospital, went on IVF, got pregnant, ended up in hospital again. Each pregnancy damaged my reproductive system further. But worse than that was what happened to me as a person. I have been told that I come across as confident, efficient, capable, all those kind of things, but I don’t always feel that way. As a teenager and young adult, I was unsure of myself, as I think most people are at that age. But as we went through the trauma of losing pregnancies, I became depressed. We lived in a small country town, and girls dropped out of high school at fifteen and had children, and I couldn’t manage to get pregnant – how dumb and useless was I that I couldn’t even have a child.
Some well meaning friends, Christians, told me to pray – as if I hadn’t thought of that! I got told that God was trying to teach me something – I already thought I was stupid because I couldn’t get past 6 weeks pregnant, and now I was told I wasn’t learning whatever it was God expected me to  learn. I was told that it was God’s way of letting me know I wouldn’t make a good mother, what with how tired I get and all – something else for me to be bad at, but why get pregnant and lose the pregnancies. What kind of a harsh, judgemental, sadistic God was this? For me God felt distant, and anyway I wasn’t sure I wanted much to do with this God who was tormenting me in the name of education, or was it judgement. Was I really that bad or that dumb?

So I can feel for Hannah, and the way she is treated by Penninah, by the tribe, even by Eli the priest. But Hannah, as countless people have in their lives before and after this, turned to God, not because it is the right thing to do, or because it guarantees a reward, but because there are so few people around who you can tell your heartache to. Here we hear of Hannah’s prayer,  a heartfelt cry to God, lips moving, but no sound, It reminds me of one of my favourite verse from Romans, where the Spirit intercede for us when we can’t pray ourselves. (8:26) This is prayer, when we are open and vulnerable with the God of the universe. Prayer isn’t flashy, prayer isn’t long winded with big fancy words, prayer isn’t about trying to impress God with our theological understanding, our ability to pray for long periods of time or our great faith.
Prayer is saying to God, this is what I feel my life is like,
prayer is sitting with God watching the sunset, 
prayer is being aware of God as you hold a dying friend’s hand.
Prayer is being open to the life that God offers every moment of the day.

Hannah’s prayer was answered, one of the commentaries notes that Samuel is a gift of God’s grace, not a reward for prayer – it isn’t like a graduation present because she got it right. God is gracious and merciful and wants us to live full lives. This story is about more than Hannah having a child from her barrenness, it is about the new life that comes to Israel as a result of this child. God enters into hopeless, barren, desolate situations and brings about a future, newness, fresh possibilities and liberation. We will soon be looking forward to the birth of Jesus, another child whose conception is unconventional, who ushers in newness and possibilities and future hope for the world. 

So where did I find newness of life, fresh possibilities in my situation, it isn’t as obvious as with Hannah, we never did have children, not through IVF or adoption even though we were in both systems for many years.

A big change occurred for me when I finally spoke with my minister – telling her I didn’t think I could go to church. I was an elder, God felt distant, and uninvolved in my life, I found that image of God easier to cope with than the image that friends were drawing for me. My minister gave me another image. Not distant, but close; not judging, but crying; not sadistic but comforting. Here was an image I could relate to, in the midst of my pain, an image of God holding me as I cried, crying with me, much as a parent or partner might do.

The newness that came was a new relationship with God, I’ve learned along the way life isn’t about what might have been, life is about what is. God is present in the celebrations and in our tears. With God there are new possibilities that come from the difficult places in our lives.


Where are the empty or barren places in your life?
Are you willing to invite God, to beg God, to enter into your lives and bring transformation?
     
[reflection time]

Hymn/song  Faith will not grow from words alone

Proclamation of the Word #2
Hannah has a son, Samuel. After he has been weaned, she takes him to the temple.

Then another prayer from Hannah, this one is often called Hannah’s song.

“This time, she lifts her voice in song, and sings of God’s victory, not only for herself, but for the whole nation of Israel, for all the people of God. The Lord God Almighty is about to do a new thing among his people, and Hannah’s song gives us a glimpse of what that new thing is to be. [Jo Anne Taylor, http://pastorsings.com/?s=hannah%27s+song]


Hannah’s Prayer/praise


All:       The Lord has filled my heart with joy;
            how happy I am because of what he has done!

1:         I laugh at my enemies;
            how joyful I am because God has helped me!

2:         No one is holy like the Lord;
            there is none like him,
            no protector like our God.

3:         Stop your loud boasting;
            silence your proud words.
            For the Lord is a God who knows,
            and he judges all that people do.

4:         The bows of strong soldiers are broken,
            but the weak grow strong.

5:         The people who once were well fed
            now hire themselves out to get food,
            but the hungry are hungry no more.

6:         The childless wife has borne seven children,
            but the mother of many is left with none.

7:         The Lord kills and restores to life;
            he sends people to the world of the dead
            and brings them back again.

8:         The Lord makes some poor and others rich;
            he humbles some and makes others great.

9:         The Lord lifts the poor from the dust
            and raises the needy from their misery.

10:       The Lord makes them companions of princes
            and puts them in places of honour.

11:       The foundations of the earth belong to the Lord;
            on them he has built the world.

12:       The Lord protects the lives of his faithful people,
            but the wicked disappear in darkness;

13:       People do not triumph by their own strength.

14:       The Lord’s enemies will be destroyed;
            he will thunder against them from heaven.

15:       The Lord will judge the whole world;
            he will give power to his king,
            he will make his chosen king victorious.

~ from Carolyn Brown’s Worshipping with Children website. http://www.worshipingwithchildren.blogspot.ca/

Along with Miriam, Mary and Hannah we too can recognise the new possibilities that come from the difficult places in our lives. We can also sing of the wonderful things God is doing,


Hymn/song Tell out, my soul, the greatness of the Lord

Saturday, 17 November 2012

fear and hope



Most of us fear something, most of us grieve, most if us know what it is to be in pain, emotional and/or physical.  Hannah was in pain, the pain of not bearing a child, particularly a son. For Hannah, a child meant having a future. If she doesn’t have a son, when her husband dies, she will be at the mercy of the sons of the other wife, or a more distant male relative. Having a son meant life and security and hope for the future.

What is it that causes us fear and grief and pain today? For some of us that will be a relationship, a medical procedure,  or a disappointment about a new job.

Mark talks about rumours of war, we don’t need rumours, there are wars and violence in many places around the world. People fear terrorist activity and criminal behaviour. Politicians are good at playing the ‘fear card’ in any election, and any time the polls are going  against them. Fear of crime, fear of foreigners, fear of teenagers, fear of bikies, fear of financial doom.  Western society is very good at fear.

The reading from Samuel, where we hear about the pain and anguish of Hannah, is a reminder of our souls longing for connection with God. Hannah's prayer is a deep longing within her, a prayer without words, or at least audible words, a prayer that wells up from deep within her. So often our prayers are what we think they should be; our prayers can become lip service, rather than relationship with God.

A quote from Mahatma Gandhi, 20th century
“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.” [UCC SAMUEL]

It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”

When we are in pain, when we grieve, when our life is held by fear, what happens to us. Most often, in these situations, people isolate themselves, we close ourselves off from others. Whether we literally lock ourselves away in a house or whether we just go into a shell, it is easier not to have to relate to other people, to new situations, and sometimes even to people we know well. It seems easier to cut ourselves off from the world and to deal with the potential for more pain.


Unfortunately sometimes this also means closing ourselves off from God. God knows about pain and fear and grief, but God is not held by these things and doesn't want us to be held and bound by them either. God, the giver of life, knows the diversity of emotions, the variety of experiences, the terror in the joy of being alive.

We are people who know God, and that means instead of holding everything inside ourselves we can pour it all out to God.

In Israel at the time of Jesus, the centre of life was the temple in Jerusalem. While the Romans had conquered Israel and were the governing body, the temple held a special place in the life of the people of Israel. The reading from Mark takes place as Jesus and his disciples have just walked out of the temple, and the disciples remark on the strength of the walls of the temple. In times of trouble people will often look to the church for help. While for many people a beautiful church building helps create a place where they sense the presence of God more easily, the building is not what can help ease our fears or hold our pain. Some buildings have that feeling of being prayed in so much that there really is something special about being in them. Churches, and other places that help us connect with God, are sanctuaries for us, sanctuaries that allow us to pour out all our worries and fears, and all our joys.

Hanna does bear a son, Samuel, and another of Hannah's prayers is recorded. This is a very different prayer to the first one. This is a prayer of joy, a prayer about God, to God. Theology is talking about God, prayer is speaking to God, prayer uses first person language. But this prayer is not only a prayer of joy at having a son, it is a prayer about a world turned upside down.

I had wondered about playing part of the song to you this morning the chorus of which is “it’s the end of the world as we know it”, I won't try and sing it for you. The gospel reading is one that has been used to try and predict the end times, but that isn't what it's about. It is about the destruction of the temple in Jerusalem, a place of great importance.

It is the end of the world as we know it.

Hannah's prayer is very much like the song of Mary that we will read in a few weeks, they both talk of a world turned upside down. A world where the poor will have food and the rich will be hungry.

It is the end of the world as we know it.

And that means the beginning of a new world.

What might this new world look like.

This morning we have baptised Callum and Rose, acknowledged how much God loves them and welcomed them into the Christian community. When I speak with people here who are in the 80s and 90s, they tell stories of how much the world has changed in their lifetime. I wonder what the world will be like when Callum and Rose are in their 80s. 


We can be fearful of the future, of the unknown, fearful of change; and we can allow that fear to keep us closed up within ourselves. We can allow fear and greed and anxiety to dominate our life and our choices. There is much in this world that we feel powerless about, poverty, wars, earthquakes and cyclones. There is even much in our local area that we feel powerless about: we fear violence if we go out at night, we are suspicious of groups of young people, we don't know who to trust. There are media reports of politicians and church leaders that cause us to question what is happening in our country.

God didn't create us to live in fear. God created us for love and for life, for freedom. We are created, known and named as God's daughters and sons.

We are called to live as the people of God, people known by God, people loved by God, people blessed by God.

It is the end of the world as we know it. A revolution of grace,  a new beginning for the poor, the hungry, the downtrodden;   a time for transformation.

Let us reflect on where God’s transforming work in our lives and the world.